Friday, April 10, 2009

At A Hault

i feel that newstart is at spiritual hault. like honestly i dont feel like im growing from it anymore. i just dont get that high like i use to. worship is slowly feeling like just singing now. like going to church is feeling like a habit rather than a passionate desire. i mean i dont know if we should see this as a problem or if this just happens to every church. but i thought about it with some people. and i came to realize, this whole time i blame the church for my lack of growth. but the real problem is in me. we always expect CHURCH to grow us. but that's not how it is. We don't grow because the church grows, the church grows because we grow. we make up the church and it is up to ourselves to enhance our relationship with God. church is there for the extra support. and when our spirituality grows, it will show, it will rub off on to other in and outside of the church and THAT will help the church grow. we cant and shouldnt rely on these "rub off" of others to give us that "high". but these rub offs are to help us grow and look deeper into the relationship. so yea. i just need to find my place and continue to look towards God, rather than use church to grow me.

"We don't grow because the church grows, the church grows because we grow."

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Without Application

so i was talking with someone about Boys Breakfast Club. i was telling them how i didnt get anything out of it. it was more of a fellowship rather than a spiritual thing. but thought about it again, and i came to realize, even though there wasnt much of a spiritual side of it, i did manage to get something out of it. i learned some pretty useful and meaningful stuff. but the problem was APPLICATION. i didnt really apply it to my life. and if i had, great things might have came out of it, for myself and for the good of others.

but i agree, it is hard to apply the stuff ON THE SPOT. you cant be like, in this situation "oh, this book saids to do this, so ill ......". that makes it fake. i guess u have to slowly adapt and incorporate it into our lives. this way guys can treat girls with the respect and care that they deserve. i pray that each and everyone of us from the breakfast club will take something positive like this out of it and that God will help me and them to apply these to our lives. not necessarily to attract a significant other, but as caring human beings and loving Christians.